Holy fuck I totally have forgotten the existence of this blog I have created.
Well guess who's here procrastinating?
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Reading back on my old posts on this blog has made me realise how much I've grown, and changed my point of views in things.
(Well there were several posts that were too personal to be posted up online.)
I start to understand more on whys and not on whats.
I just guess I was too naive and thought things would turn out well eventually, even without me interfering.
But in reality, sacrifices are inevitable. You can't really achieve something without losing something. (I guess?)
Who knows I might change my view on things again slowly?
But god damn, I was so into this I even went to learn HTML to edit my stuff around.
Update on life,
I'm in my third and final year of university life. I still can't believe time flew past just like that. This is too unreal.
I must say engineering is
not an easy course to tackle on.
I could relate to all the memes and posts that was posted in regards to engineering students with no social life, nor love life, etc. and
they are true.
It is really hard to balance on social life, relationships stuff, personal life, school life, gaming life, and aiming for a good grade.
To be fair, I realise I started caring less on socialising with friends, focusing on just a few, so that I could have other qualities.
But then again, I feel like people would just need a few loyal, truthful friends that you could get along with well around, rather than having a lot of "friends" that you can't even trust and talk about your personal life with them.
Leaving Brunei again for the third time and having the dreadful 13.5hours flight to the UK makes leaving even more difficult, and yea I'm homesick again.
There are times I wish I could just escape and run away back to home.
And the only thing I could do is just to suck it up and be patient with time.
But I'm glad I had this opportunity to study here.
Being abroad makes you independent, and makes your cherish the things your parents have done for you.
I never realise all these things because they were always doing it for us.
And I would never realise and appreciate these things without coming here.
Going abroad do widen your views and I feel like I've learnt more stuff here than back in Brunei.
And that's a good thing.
I haven't been writing stuff that's this long so getting rusty with this.
I'm not even sure if anyone's still reading my stuff haha
But I guess I'll just leave it for future Alice to read.
Ciao!
