Regrets. + Home sick post.

People always say "live your life with no regrets"
but how can you be so sure that the decision you make is not going to be a regret in the first place?
You won't know until it actually happens and there's nothing more you can do to undo it.

There's definitely tonnes of things I did in the past that made me feel really bad and feeling regretful,
Wondering on what impulse I would make such stupid decisions
or wonder why the hell didn't I try to change the situation.
Or, maybe why didn't I take the chance in the first place.


If I have to choose the biggest regret I have,
It would definitely be not spending much time with my family
Despite of all the fights I had with my parents and siblings,
despite of all the issues I have back home,
despite of all the bad things that happened since childhood,
they're still family.

Thank you guys for coming and not tearing up, cause I would definitely flood the whole airport.
I love you papa, momma, and didis.
And also my older brother, whom has already left for UK before me. But still love you too.

I'm really glad that I started to talk to them more, especially my mum,
(Hey, better late than never)
It still warms my heart whenever she tries to text me over Whatsapp,
asking how I've been, even if she doesn't really show how much love she have over her daughter
I may not be the most loved child in the family,
But this has warmed my heart a lot and I do really want to be back home in Brunei
To spend more time with them
To be able to hug my daddy (I only started doing this last year)
To be able to listen to my brothers' complains about how bad the internet is while they're gaming
I miss home.
And I can't wait to be back in 6 months time.


This regret has made me realise,
that there are things you can do to undo some of them.
I'm glad that I tried to talk up to my old fashioned traditional-minded parents (I'm sorry for calling you guys that D: )
and hey, things did change, we're more closer than before.

So kidssss,
Along the way in life, you might mess up,
you might make the wrong decisions
you might make the right decision

If you made a mistake,
and if you can't do anything about it to change it,
it's still something you can learn from.


Lastly,
Quoting a saying from Oprah Winfrey,

Be thankful for what you have,
you'll end up having more.
If you concentrate on what you don't have,
you'll never, ever have enough.

Sometimes you don't see that the best things that ever happened to you is right under your nose.