KK Vlog

Hello there blog,

just to update I have posted up a vlog that I made in the midst of procrastination of uni work.




The 4 of us went to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah, Malaysia on the last week of July 2016,
so this video was long overdue.
I wasn't really planning on making a vlog, but then I got really bored of studying and made a quick edit and compiling of videos we took during the trip.

Had a lot of amazing food there and might have gained a few kgs during the trip.
Went snorkeling and boy, the corals there were beautiful as fuck.
Nonetheless I'm really glad we planned out the trip and everything went well.

uh, hi?

Holy fuck I totally have forgotten the existence of this blog I have created.
Well guess who's here procrastinating? tsktsk

Reading back on my old posts on this blog has made me realise how much I've grown, and changed my point of views in things.
(Well there were several posts that were too personal to be posted up online.)
I start to understand more on whys and not on whats.
I just guess I was too naive and thought things would turn out well eventually, even without me interfering.
But in reality, sacrifices are inevitable. You can't really achieve something without losing something. (I guess?)
Who knows I might change my view on things again slowly?

But god damn, I was so into this I even went to learn HTML to edit my stuff around.


Update on life,
I'm in my third and final year of university life. I still can't believe time flew past just like that. This is too unreal.
I must say engineering is not an easy course to tackle on.
I could relate to all the memes and posts that was posted in regards to engineering students with no social life, nor love life, etc. and they are true.
It is really hard to balance on social life, relationships stuff, personal life, school life, gaming life, and aiming for a good grade.
To be fair, I realise I started caring less on socialising with friends, focusing on just a few, so that I could have other qualities.
But then again, I feel like people would just need a few loyal, truthful friends that you could get along with well around, rather than having a lot of "friends" that you can't even trust and talk about your personal life with them.


Leaving Brunei again for the third time and having the dreadful 13.5hours flight to the UK makes leaving even more difficult, and yea I'm homesick again.
There are times I wish I could just escape and run away back to home.
And the only thing I could do is just to suck it up and be patient with time.
But I'm glad I had this opportunity to study here.
Being abroad makes you independent, and makes your cherish the things your parents have done for you.
I never realise all these things because they were always doing it for us.
And I would never realise and appreciate these things without coming here.
Going abroad do widen your views and I feel like I've learnt more stuff here than back in Brunei.
And that's a good thing.


I haven't been writing stuff that's this long so getting rusty with this.
I'm not even sure if anyone's still reading my stuff haha
But I guess I'll just leave it for future Alice to read.


Ciao!

Regrets. + Home sick post.

People always say "live your life with no regrets"
but how can you be so sure that the decision you make is not going to be a regret in the first place?
You won't know until it actually happens and there's nothing more you can do to undo it.

There's definitely tonnes of things I did in the past that made me feel really bad and feeling regretful,
Wondering on what impulse I would make such stupid decisions
or wonder why the hell didn't I try to change the situation.
Or, maybe why didn't I take the chance in the first place.


If I have to choose the biggest regret I have,
It would definitely be not spending much time with my family
Despite of all the fights I had with my parents and siblings,
despite of all the issues I have back home,
despite of all the bad things that happened since childhood,
they're still family.

Thank you guys for coming and not tearing up, cause I would definitely flood the whole airport.
I love you papa, momma, and didis.
And also my older brother, whom has already left for UK before me. But still love you too.

I'm really glad that I started to talk to them more, especially my mum,
(Hey, better late than never)
It still warms my heart whenever she tries to text me over Whatsapp,
asking how I've been, even if she doesn't really show how much love she have over her daughter
I may not be the most loved child in the family,
But this has warmed my heart a lot and I do really want to be back home in Brunei
To spend more time with them
To be able to hug my daddy (I only started doing this last year)
To be able to listen to my brothers' complains about how bad the internet is while they're gaming
I miss home.
And I can't wait to be back in 6 months time.


This regret has made me realise,
that there are things you can do to undo some of them.
I'm glad that I tried to talk up to my old fashioned traditional-minded parents (I'm sorry for calling you guys that D: )
and hey, things did change, we're more closer than before.

So kidssss,
Along the way in life, you might mess up,
you might make the wrong decisions
you might make the right decision

If you made a mistake,
and if you can't do anything about it to change it,
it's still something you can learn from.


Lastly,
Quoting a saying from Oprah Winfrey,

Be thankful for what you have,
you'll end up having more.
If you concentrate on what you don't have,
you'll never, ever have enough.

Sometimes you don't see that the best things that ever happened to you is right under your nose.

someone told me to always

live for the little things in live.

live for the 5am sunrises and 5pm sunsets

where you'll see colours in the sky that

don't usually belong. 

live for road trips and bike rides

with music in your ears and 

the wind in your hair

live for days when you're surrounded 

by your favourite people who make you realise

thta the world is not 

a cold, harsh place.

live for the little things because

they will make you realise that

this is what life is about,

this is what it meant to be

alive.

(a.y)

Post assignment blog post

Sitting in the quiet library. yes I've grown chubbier.

The production of a wonderful and freaking amaze-balls presentation I could ever make in my 18 years, has just ended. Kidding, all of my presentations are awesome ;D
Whilst waiting for my bestie/sister/girlfriend/mom/flatmate to finish her assignment so we could walk back our home sweet home, I've decided to write this forever-being-abandoned blog.

Holy sheeeeeeeet, time really do flies when you don't notice and being kept up with shit tons of stuff to do during university. I'm not that homesick anymore, but still do looking forward to the day I go home and momo jumps on me, too bad she's too small can't tackle me down, I wish she could.

I'm really glad that I chose Cardiff University during that phone call at 10am, when I was still sleeping. And thank god sleepy Alice chose the right decision. I'm really glad that I met the people here.
It's becoming kind of a thank-you blog post here.


Strolls in the middle of the night has always been one of my favourite thing to do. I haven't been doing it here because Cardiff is a new place for me and I don't really have the balls to go out much often alone, because of the things my parents had told me, there are many bad people who will try to rob you at night and bad things may happen to you and no one will know. 
This scares the shit outta me since young.
It changes when there's someone who could accompany you for a walk. You will learn a lot of things on the journey to somewhere, talking to people and getting to know them, it's really fun.
I've learnt about a lot during these late night strolls.


Sometimes in life you may think, "Is this the right decision to do this?" And you may think, "Yea, fuck it, yolo." Well that happens to me a lot, and most of the time I ended up in a good place, which is very lucky. So I'm betting on my luck here again, in Cardiff.


And yes this is a pointless blogpost, cause there's not pen nor pencil or any pointy objects involved. Geddit geddit? lol ok sorry 

Starting a new life in Cardiff University

Whew. My blog forever in hiatus mode.

So I'm back here again, cause I can. And I have nothing much to do now, whilst waiting my flatmate to be back from her induction programmes.

After my previous CNY + A levels update, been slacking the whole 9 months out of myself. Damn that was fun.
Went to HK with le dad, and had Australia + KL w le bestie, Sheryn.
Was supposed to make a comeback for my blog after the trip, but caught up with preparations for my further studies *cough, excuses*

Too lazy to update everything hereeeeeeeeee.
But just for the sake of updating something. Everything's in my Twitter and Instagram.

Here I am now, at Cardiff University, starting a new chapter of my life, as a university student.
Cardiff has been an interesting city for me, and most of the students I've met till now are friendly to me, which is a super good thing. I've been worried about people being unfriendly to me, and me being unable to make friends around, but everything went better than expected. Super glad that my flatmates are great and awesome too!
Also, thank you to past self for choosing Senghennydd Hall as my first choice. The location is really great since it's so near to my engineering block and to town! Which means I don't have to walk so much :P I always tell people that the place where I come from don't walk much, because all of us have cars, and heck, oil is well-knownly cheap in Brunei. Hence I always complain to my friends that the journey is long if we have to walk for 20 minutes or so.
Pubs and clubs are currently filled with freshers thanks to the fresher events. I have no idea how people can party for 2 weeks straight. I can't even stand 2 straight nights . fml. I only went for a club, and a live lounge. I prefer lounge than clubs to be honest.


Ok I guess that's my thoughts of the day . idk what am i typing also
I'm actually still in my PJs in my room.
Here's the proof.

My T-shirt is so cuteeeeeeee. thanks to le brother who bought it from Thailand.
And yes I was trying to mimic the face of the dog. HAHA #failed.

okay see you guys!
Ciao~

Happy (Belated) Chinese New Year to All!

Happy (belated) horse year everyone!

Thanks Google Images!

And may the horse be with you!
( F = ma
ma -> 马 horse in chinese) ha hah haha haha ha ok lame.
Hope you guys had a great CNY with all those angpaos you've been getting, all the money you win/lost from gambling and all the fun times you get to have with your friends.

Guilty for saying that I've been wasting most of my time, and not doing things that I find productive, other than the CF I've been working at, and university hunting.
But at least I've finished my kdramas, some of my Supernatural, TVD, Big Bang Theory and animes, I've been dying to catch up ever since A levels exams started. T_T
-otaku girl detected-
Yes I've stayed home for these few days cause I don't really want to go out and I'm kind of lazy to go out too, unless it's for a movie or hangouts with my buddies.

Before the start of CNY, I've been feeling for some changes in my appearance, so I decided to dye my hair into some colour I've never thought I would have on my hair.
My hair is really on a bad state. As people who have already met me before would have noticed that it frizzles and is quite rough and dry.
It took me a while to find a good and definitely-worth-the-price saloon to do my hair, thanks for few friend's recommendations - Essensuals Beauty Hair & Nail Spa
I've been there few times before, and so far, I've rated them 9/10 for their customer service. These people are so friendly (Filipinos are really goddamn friendly, to me at least) and I enjoyed talking to them.
And they chose for me an ombré/dipdye purple-ish red with my current brown hair.

CNY day 1 & day 3 outfit ^. from instagram. just go and follow me for more pics for more of me and my life hehehehehehe
aaaaaaaaaaaaaand please do remind me not to dye red again, cause it doesn't really suits my personality.
But they did a great job on the hair colour. :D


Moving forward, I finally have gotten my results after 10 days, 7 hours, 31 minutes of waiting after my registration to the SMS notification so I can know my results ASAP . YES IM THAT KANCHIONG THAT I TIMED HOW LONG IS IT TO COME OUT shushhhh
To be honest, at first I was quite shocked and mad cause it came to me in this way:

G.P = c
CHE = B
PHY = C
MAT = B

Dammit do you really have to put it out on this way? I felt quite cheeeeeeeeebaaaaaai cheeseburger when it was announced to me on this way. But I'm okay with it now la, really. It wasn't that bad if it was BBCc. (perspective eyyyyyy)
To my predictions I've made here, I only lost physics. So sorry I got a C for this T_T -cries-

Also!!!! There's still this worry about getting into a good uni with this grade? Is this sufficient? Will they accept me? Man, I still have to wait!!! :c
These waitings and expectations you get from your friends and relatives asking you "what's your next plans?" "where are you going for uni" kinda drives me crazy

Need a little runaway from reality for now. actually i'm kinda lazy to type now, hey it's 12.30AM.
-back to movies and animes-
ciao ~